Pondering

Monkeys at the water, sipping and looking

5/5/2026

No more fever, yippee! Would have been good news if it doesn't switch from fever to itchy throat and even more restless night of sleep. This better end tomorrow, not like I can command my body to do so, ugh, I supposed we will have to see. More or less I don't feel so bad, it's just annoying for the most parts and quite exhausting in the morning to get into a normal shape. No more fever, yippee! Would have been good news if it doesn't switch from fever to itchy throat and even more restless night of sleep. This better end tomorrow, not like I can command my body to do so, ugh, I supposed we will have to see. More or less I don't feel so bad, it's just annoying for the most parts and quite exhausting in the morning to get into a normal shape.

May 05, 2026

5/4/2026

Still sick, bleh, this really stop being fun the moment it affects my sleep. I hate this feeling, feels like I'm half awake while I'm asleep, should have been very restless the next day, but no. It never does that, I guess sleeping 8 hours most days does have it effects. Or is it, is it even that, as intrigues as it may sounds, stop itttttttttttttt. Still sick, bleh, this really stop being fun the moment it affects my sleep. I hate this feeling, feels like I'm half awake while I'm asleep, should have been very restless the next day, but no. It never does that, I guess sleeping 8 hours most days does have it effects. Or is it, is it even that, as intrigues as it may sounds, stop itttttttttttttt.

May 05, 2026

5/3/2026

Shite, bloody hell, I'm sick, hopefully it will pass soon, feeling like absolute shite. Is it kinda weird that I'm sorta enjoying this? It been too long already, still having a fever this close to D day is no good. Shite, bloody hell, I'm sick, hopefully it will pass soon, feeling like absolute shite. Is it kinda weird that I'm sorta enjoying this? It been too long already, still having a fever this close to D day is no good.

May 05, 2026

5/2/2026

Good ol'weekend, one last one before I took flight. The usual stuff, reading, gaming and even more gaming, could get better than this, but then again can always be worse. As it is right now, there are no complain Good ol'weekend, one last one before I took flight. The usual stuff, reading, gaming and even more gaming, could get better than this, but then again can always be worse. As it is right now, there are no complain

May 05, 2026

5/1/2026

Today is the day, the last day, the finale, the final act of this odyssey. Maybe, idk, there probably will be a second book of this. Mostly mundane stuff but it was good, to say the least. Nothing to complain about really, but since this was only a short period of exposure, the results are yet to be concrete. So yea, perhaps more time, that being said. We will see… Today is the day, the last day, the finale, the final act of this odyssey. Maybe, idk, there probably will be a second book of this. Mostly mundane stuff but it was good, to say the least. Nothing to complain about really, but since this was only a short period of exposure, the results are yet to be concrete. So yea, perhaps more time, that being said. We will see…

May 05, 2026

4/30/26

End of the month huh, well, the plan is to just told a few of the trusted kids and have them spread the news, but, shit, that's kinda feel shitty for some reason. End of the month huh, well, the plan is to just told a few of the trusted kids and have them spread the news, but, shit, that's kinda feel shitty for some reason.

May 05, 2026

4/29/26

As I getting used to the kids, I do find myself become quite fond of their presences. As it's close to the day I leave, I'll have to figure out a way to say goodbye to them eventually. Not sure how I would do it, although I have a few ideas. As I getting used to the kids, I do find myself become quite fond of their presences. As it's close to the day I leave, I'll have to figure out a way to say goodbye to them eventually. Not sure how I would do it, although I have a few ideas.

May 05, 2026

4/28/26

Tuesday huh, the log entry now will tell you that Jordan is increasingly becoming a troublesome kid, bad influence even. Most kids are just brilliant imitator of those that surround them, and a loud one is certainly not a welcome addition. Tuesday huh, the log entry now will tell you that Jordan is increasingly becoming a troublesome kid, bad influence even. Most kids are just brilliant imitator of those that surround them, and a loud one is certainly not a welcome addition.

May 05, 2026

4/27/26

A little contrast to start of the week is nice enough. Let's see, what today have in store for little old me. Nothing unusual, as it should be really, why would there be. Most of human's life is made up of mundane everyday after all. A little contrast to start of the week is nice enough. Let's see, what today have in store for little old me. Nothing unusual, as it should be really, why would there be. Most of human's life is made up of mundane everyday after all.

May 05, 2026

4/26/26

Nice numbers, besides that Sunday is another nothing burger. The end is here, which mean a new beginning is about to reveal itself. One week left, so be it. Nice numbers, besides that Sunday is another nothing burger. The end is here, which mean a new beginning is about to reveal itself. One week left, so be it.

May 05, 2026

4/25/26

Saturday, now this is true peak. Saturday, now this is true peak.

May 05, 2026

4/24/2026

Bahhh, whatever, it is Friday!!! Ehem, the reason for my excitement is not that of the same kind that my colleagues' posses. They are glad that they will get some respite from the kids for a while, I got excited because Friday it's time to read my peaks. Bahhh, whatever, it is Friday!!! Ehem, the reason for my excitement is not that of the same kind that my colleagues' posses. They are glad that they will get some respite from the kids for a while, I got excited because Friday it's time to read my peaks.

May 05, 2026

4/23/26

Really tho, what I have done in my past life to deserve such luck, how many lives have I saved? Can't help but feel like I don't deserve it from times to times. I have to repay it somehow, a long way to go from here. Really tho, what I have done in my past life to deserve such luck, how many lives have I saved? Can't help but feel like I don't deserve it from times to times. I have to repay it somehow, a long way to go from here.

May 05, 2026

4/22/26

Such a, well, uh, easy? Idk, really laxing? I can't even ask for better pay since the work I do are next to nothing, a nothing burger...More or less the same thing with my last, pondering for a result, thus I come to a few possibilities. Either my expectation was too horrid, or my luck have yet to run out. The former does held a bit more glimmer of light and hope for the future, the later, eventually... Such a, well, uh, easy? Idk, really laxing? I can't even ask for better pay since the work I do are next to nothing, a nothing burger...More or less the same thing with my last, pondering for a result, thus I come to a few possibilities. Either my expectation was too horrid, or my luck have yet to run out. The former does held a bit more glimmer of light and hope for the future, the later, eventually...

May 05, 2026

4/21/26

Huh? What was this about again? Huh? What was this about again?

May 05, 2026

4/20/2026

Hmmm, just two more weeks, there are still some preparations left to be made. Hmmmm, a sudden bad taste in my mouth, I'm truly a horrible son, haiz. Anyhow, best not to dwell on it too much, it only will snow balling, also better cross out suffering for redemtion, obviously. Hmmm, just two more weeks, there are still some preparations left to be made. Hmmmm, a sudden bad taste in my mouth, I'm truly a horrible son, haiz. Anyhow, best not to dwell on it too much, it only will snow balling, also better cross out suffering for redemtion, obviously.

May 05, 2026

4/19/2026

It's Sunday, hotpot is a pleasant surprise, it had been too long really. I love lamb, they also have the very tender beef, yummy. The chicken is lowkey mid today, and I'm not sure whether I should be glad or disappointed that they don't have my favorite chocolate cake piece today. Overall, good day. It's Sunday, hotpot is a pleasant surprise, it had been too long really. I love lamb, they also have the very tender beef, yummy. The chicken is lowkey mid today, and I'm not sure whether I should be glad or disappointed that they don't have my favorite chocolate cake piece today. Overall, good day.

May 05, 2026

4/18/2026

Side note, I'm getting good at pool, nothing to boast, but I hit the ball way more consistently than I was able to many moons ago. This summer about to be a bit more fun now, haha! Side note, I'm getting good at pool, nothing to boast, but I hit the ball way more consistently than I was able to many moons ago. This summer about to be a bit more fun now, haha!

May 05, 2026

4/17/2026

I didn't expect much when I decided to tell him the news, but surprisingly good result came out of it. I supposed I have to make more effort learning the rope now. Retain, retain, retain, but for how long, and where do I go from here, hmmm. I didn't expect much when I decided to tell him the news, but surprisingly good result came out of it. I supposed I have to make more effort learning the rope now. Retain, retain, retain, but for how long, and where do I go from here, hmmm.

May 05, 2026

4/16/2026

Eh, not like I really care. Do I? I wasn't planning to stick around for long, but then again this is a good option even though there aren't enough hours for the long term, wonderful for short term tho, which is right now. Although I think, I did heard something about extra hours from Mr. Johnson, I wonder how that work. Eh, not like I really care. Do I? I wasn't planning to stick around for long, but then again this is a good option even though there aren't enough hours for the long term, wonderful for short term tho, which is right now. Although I think, I did heard something about extra hours from Mr. Johnson, I wonder how that work.

May 05, 2026

4/15/2026

Free week is quite fun, both for me and the kids. But not like the normal week is bad for me either. Yet, comfort is the slow killer, I have yet to understand the full structure and decision-making model of this facility. Not like I was actively seeking understanding of it either, like usual, I just do what I was told and keep half an eye out for useful informations. Free week is quite fun, both for me and the kids. But not like the normal week is bad for me either. Yet, comfort is the slow killer, I have yet to understand the full structure and decision-making model of this facility. Not like I was actively seeking understanding of it either, like usual, I just do what I was told and keep half an eye out for useful informations.

May 05, 2026

4/14/2026

Same ol' same ole. Apparently, we are doing free week, no class for the most part, they just do whatever they want in the gym. Oh yes, I learned most of the kids name now, at least those that are on my route, progress, feel good. Same ol' same ole. Apparently, we are doing free week, no class for the most part, they just do whatever they want in the gym. Oh yes, I learned most of the kids name now, at least those that are on my route, progress, feel good.

May 05, 2026

4/13/2026

Third day now, all fine and dandy, as it should, as it should. The kids doesn't want to stay still, naturally, not like I was either. Some acting out for a reason, attention seeking perhaps, sorry little one, I can't I gotta drive, so all I can do is occasionally use my loud voice. Still for a while and then chaos again, huh, looking back not like Zoey method was any more effective. Third day now, all fine and dandy, as it should, as it should. The kids doesn't want to stay still, naturally, not like I was either. Some acting out for a reason, attention seeking perhaps, sorry little one, I can't I gotta drive, so all I can do is occasionally use my loud voice. Still for a while and then chaos again, huh, looking back not like Zoey method was any more effective.

May 05, 2026

4/12/2026

Second day going solo, forgot to mentioned that I didn't know all the kids yet so doing attendance is going to be confusing. But ya boi is a resourceful one, he know his human, and he know that the teacher that led the kids to the bus won't hesitate to help. Adversaries avert, triumphant is mine! I really need to be throw out in the wild more, being passive and lazy really do me no good. Second day going solo, forgot to mentioned that I didn't know all the kids yet so doing attendance is going to be confusing. But ya boi is a resourceful one, he know his human, and he know that the teacher that led the kids to the bus won't hesitate to help. Adversaries avert, triumphant is mine! I really need to be throw out in the wild more, being passive and lazy really do me no good.

May 05, 2026

4/11/2026

Ah great, I guess I'm alone on the route now. Not sure at which point did I ever said that I'm confident enough to go solo, but Mr. Johson seems to get that idea from somewhere. Well, fortunately, I were managed to learn the first loop, second loop, eh the gps will get it done half way through, after that I will got myself a navigator. Peachy peachy. Ah great, I guess I'm alone on the route now. Not sure at which point did I ever said that I'm confident enough to go solo, but Mr. Johson seems to get that idea from somewhere. Well, fortunately, I were managed to learn the first loop, second loop, eh the gps will get it done half way through, after that I will got myself a navigator. Peachy peachy.

May 05, 2026

4/10/2026

Mr. Johnson, A.K.A Mr. Bossman and okie dokie. Easy man to work with, his kids are mostly fine, but damn, 3 kids? One is energetic, luckily obedient enough so that she won't cause any trouble. The other one is already a big kid, nothing much to say about him, fine enough kid. The last one tho, phew, troublesome, always try to get other to trouble. He's quite literally, "The boy who cries wolf", really make me wonder if his dad ever tells him the story. What exactly is the cause for this, and since it clearly doesn't work, why would he keep doing it... Mr. Johnson, A.K.A Mr. Bossman and okie dokie. Easy man to work with, his kids are mostly fine, but damn, 3 kids? One is energetic, luckily obedient enough so that she won't cause any trouble. The other one is already a big kid, nothing much to say about him, fine enough kid. The last one tho, phew, troublesome, always try to get other to trouble. He's quite literally, "The boy who cries wolf", really make me wonder if his dad ever tells him the story. What exactly is the cause for this, and since it clearly doesn't work, why would he keep doing it...

May 05, 2026

4/9/2026

Another day on the bus, "learning the route", no really, doesn't learn shit from these trips, well besides some minor things, mostly paperwork. Kids are again rowdy, Zoey surely know how to scold them, work quite well. Another day on the bus, "learning the route", no really, doesn't learn shit from these trips, well besides some minor things, mostly paperwork. Kids are again rowdy, Zoey surely know how to scold them, work quite well.

May 05, 2026

4/8/2026

Work is, well, fun for the most part. Playing with the kids, keep them in line. Ah yes, before that, gotta learn the route, barely pay attention most of the time tho, the kids in the back are sure rowdy. Also being half deaf and half blind with putting in minimal effort doesn't really help either. Surely this won't come back and bite me in the hind. Work is, well, fun for the most part. Playing with the kids, keep them in line. Ah yes, before that, gotta learn the route, barely pay attention most of the time tho, the kids in the back are sure rowdy. Also being half deaf and half blind with putting in minimal effort doesn't really help either. Surely this won't come back and bite me in the hind.

May 05, 2026

4/7/2026

Today is the day, quite literally. Hmmm, some issues with the kids, I have yet to find myself to be more engaged with them. It's true that it was due to several minor inconveniences, but myself is as per usual, at fault. Nevertheless, it wasn't all fruitless, after some more observation I can definitely tell that the program is nowhere near enough "fun" for the kids. I wonder is it because they ran out of ideas, burn out, or simply just not very fond of the kids. Maybe they are, but clearly not enough for them to try their best. The coward me, will surely try his best to push the confrontation back a far as possible, but this new side of me that I have been cultivating, is telling me to do the opposite. What to do, what to do... Today is the day, quite literally. Hmmm, some issues with the kids, I have yet to find myself to be more engaged with them. It's true that it was due to several minor inconveniences, but myself is as per usual, at fault. Nevertheless, it wasn't all fruitless, after some more observation I can definitely tell that the program is nowhere near enough "fun" for the kids. I wonder is it because they ran out of ideas, burn out, or simply just not very fond of the kids. Maybe they are, but clearly not enough for them to try their best. The coward me, will surely try his best to push the confrontation back a far as possible, but this new side of me that I have been cultivating, is telling me to do the opposite. What to do, what to do...

April 08, 2026

4/6/2026

Hmmmm, how did they do it, I understand that, they too, been in hardship before their can bear fruits. The very least thing that is true and I know for sure is, it is simply too early, mine is too little, not enough. Learn from them I did, albeit loosely so, not very methodologic. After all, it is freedom that what I seek, yet I still need to admit, that doubt was begins to stem. Hmmmm, how did they do it, I understand that, they too, been in hardship before their can bear fruits. The very least thing that is true and I know for sure is, it is simply too early, mine is too little, not enough. Learn from them I did, albeit loosely so, not very methodologic. After all, it is freedom that what I seek, yet I still need to admit, that doubt was begins to stem.

April 08, 2026

4/5/2026

Atlas, nothing happens, nothing ever happens. Clearer, even more so, the foundation is there, but the taints still persist. Must I take every apple out of it basket? No, that's different, though who say it can't help. Atlas, nothing happens, nothing ever happens. Clearer, even more so, the foundation is there, but the taints still persist. Must I take every apple out of it basket? No, that's different, though who say it can't help.

April 08, 2026

4/4/2026

Hmmm, lots of fours, probably nothing, but I do find myself to be somewhat wary of it, given the nature of the work that I'm getting myself in lately. But rather baseless it is, same path, but not same roots, might just not even cross at all and might just be old wife's tales. Hmmm, lots of fours, probably nothing, but I do find myself to be somewhat wary of it, given the nature of the work that I'm getting myself in lately. But rather baseless it is, same path, but not same roots, might just not even cross at all and might just be old wife's tales.

April 08, 2026

4/3/2026

I really need to get on NieR:Automata,well not before Clair Obscur Expedition 33. Still, not very fond of the turn-based combat, although Slay the Spire 2 was very enjoyable. Now that I have some more exposures to the genre, it shouldn't be too hard. After all, what do I have to gain if I limit my tastes, gotta spread my wings a little. I really need to get on NieR:Automata,well not before Clair Obscur Expedition 33. Still, not very fond of the turn-based combat, although Slay the Spire 2 was very enjoyable. Now that I have some more exposures to the genre, it shouldn't be too hard. After all, what do I have to gain if I limit my tastes, gotta spread my wings a little.

April 08, 2026

4/2/2026

And that was the first of April, And that was the first of April,

April 08, 2026

4/1/2026

Mùa xuân có em như chưa bắt đầu Và cơn gió như khẽ mơn man lay từng nhành hoa rơi Em vội bước tới như em đã từng Chạy trốn với anh trên cánh đồng xanh Mùa xuân có em như chưa bắt đầu Và cơn gió như khẽ mơn man lay từng nhành hoa rơi Em vội bước tới như em đã từng Chạy trốn với anh trên cánh đồng xanh

April 08, 2026

3/30/2026

Hopemaxxing Hopemaxxing

April 08, 2026

3/29/2026

Ah, but that's only nature, Ah, but that's only nature,

April 08, 2026

3/28/2026

Light? Light?

April 08, 2026

3/27/2026

A flickering ember, A flickering ember,

April 08, 2026

3/26/2026

The corruption of the divine, The corruption of the divine,

April 08, 2026

3/25/2026

The brighter the light, The brighter the light,

April 08, 2026

3/24/2026

Where there is light, Where there is light,

April 08, 2026

3/23/2026

Must it come to an end? Must it come to an end?

April 08, 2026

3/22/2026

The desire to continue, The desire to continue,

April 08, 2026

3/21/2026

Another day, Another day,

April 08, 2026

3/20/2026

More rest, More rest,

April 08, 2026

3/19/2026

Before that, Before that,

April 08, 2026

3/18/2026

Well that was the first loop being done. The amount of information is not surprise, large. The retain amount of information is, a mere fraction of the whole. How many time should I repeat before I remember the base of them all. Hmmm, a worthy goal, seems doable enough. Let that be the next objective. Well that was the first loop being done. The amount of information is not surprise, large. The retain amount of information is, a mere fraction of the whole. How many time should I repeat before I remember the base of them all. Hmmm, a worthy goal, seems doable enough. Let that be the next objective.

April 08, 2026

3/17/2026

Càn-Thiên Càn-Thiên

April 08, 2026

3/16/2026

Lữ-Hỏa Sơn Lữ-Hỏa Sơn

April 08, 2026

3/15/2026

Cách-Trạch Hỏa Cách-Trạch Hỏa

April 08, 2026

3/14/2026

Quải-Trạch Sơn Quải-Trạch Sơn

April 08, 2026

3/13/2026

Bí-Sơn Hỏa Bí-Sơn Hỏa

April 08, 2026

3/12/2026

Khiêm-Địa Sơn Khiêm-Địa Sơn

April 08, 2026

3/11/2026

Tỷ-Thủy-Địa Tỷ-Thủy-Địa

April 08, 2026

3/10/2026

Càn-Thiên Càn-Thiên

April 08, 2026

3/9/2026

Trĩ lệ vu la. Con chim trĩ (vì chính trực) mắc vào lưới. Trĩ lệ vu la. Con chim trĩ (vì chính trực) mắc vào lưới.

April 08, 2026

3/8/2026

有兔爰爰， 有兔爰爰，

April 08, 2026

3/7/2026

War, war never change War, war never change

April 08, 2026

3/6/2026

Virtue, Telos, Eudaimonia Virtue, Telos, Eudaimonia

April 08, 2026

3/5/2026

Cửu tam. Cửu tam.

April 08, 2026

3/4/2026

Hesitation is defeat Hesitation is defeat

April 08, 2026

3/3/2026

56. 火 山 旅  HỎA SƠN LỮ   56. 火 山 旅  HỎA SƠN LỮ  

April 08, 2026

3/2/2026

Tĩnh Dạ Tứ Tĩnh Dạ Tứ

March 04, 2026

3/1/2026

Đầu giường trăng sáng soi, Đầu giường trăng sáng soi,

March 03, 2026

2/28/2026

Soft and hard, soft and hard Soft and hard, soft and hard

March 03, 2026

2/27/2026

Soft and hard, soft and hard Soft and hard, soft and hard

March 03, 2026

2/26/2026

Soft and hard, soft and hard Soft and hard, soft and hard

March 03, 2026

2/25/2026

火 風 鼎   Hỏa Phong Đỉnh   火 風 鼎   Hỏa Phong Đỉnh  

March 03, 2026

2/24/2026

澤 火 革  TRẠCH HỎA CÁCH   澤 火 革  TRẠCH HỎA CÁCH  

March 03, 2026

2/23/2026

Lôi thiên đẠI TRÁNG    Lôi thiên đẠI TRÁNG   

March 03, 2026

2/22/2026

SƠN THIÊN ĐẠI SÚC    SƠN THIÊN ĐẠI SÚC   

March 03, 2026

2/19/2026

天 地 否 Thiên Địa Bĩ   天 地 否 Thiên Địa Bĩ  

March 03, 2026

2/21/2026

Phệ Hạp Tự Quái Phệ Hạp Tự Quái

March 03, 2026

2/20/2026

Soon, Soon,

March 03, 2026

2/18/2026

山 澤 損  SƠN TRẠCH TỔN   山 澤 損  SƠN TRẠCH TỔN  

March 03, 2026

2/17/2026

Khuê Tự Quái Khuê Tự Quái

March 03, 2026

2/16/2026

There it goes, There it goes,

March 03, 2026

2/15/2026

Still bright, still here Still bright, still here

March 03, 2026

2/14/2026

地 火 明 夷  ĐỊA HỎA MINH DI    地 火 明 夷  ĐỊA HỎA MINH DI   

March 03, 2026

2/13/2026

Tấn Tự Quái Tấn Tự Quái

March 03, 2026

2/12/2026

The clock turns once again, The clock turns once again,

February 17, 2026

2/11/2026

And thus, it begins, And thus, it begins,

February 17, 2026

2/10/2026

It will ends eventually, It will ends eventually,

February 17, 2026

2/9/2026

Another one and then another Another one and then another

February 17, 2026

2/8/2026

Aghhhh, the light, it burnnnn! Aghhhh, the light, it burnnnn!

February 17, 2026

2/7/2026

Sunlight yellow overdrive! Sunlight yellow overdrive!

February 17, 2026

2/6/2026

Another day Another day

February 17, 2026

2/5/2026

Shining justice　芽生えてく Shining justice　芽生えてく

February 09, 2026

2/4/2026

Eyes open Eyes open

February 09, 2026

2/3/2026

A new week huh? A new week huh?

February 09, 2026

2/2/2026

A week already, Chronos sure don't wait for anyone A week already, Chronos sure don't wait for anyone

February 02, 2026

2/1/2026

Here come Helios! Here come Helios!

February 02, 2026

1/31/2026

Nature prevails again! Nature prevails again!

February 02, 2026

1/30/2026

The sun rises from the east! The sun rises from the east!

February 02, 2026

1/29/2026

The clock turns once again, The clock turns once again,

February 02, 2026

1/28/2026

Another day begin, Another day begin,

February 02, 2026

1/27/2026

Today agenda: Today agenda:

February 02, 2026

Pondering